So much to say

I don’t know why but something seems amiss and I, quite frankly, hate it

its been so long

well i fail at this lately, ive just been too swamped with everything else but im sitting here and jenny is at twilight…and i miss her like crazy

im tired and want to sleep but not without her

i love you baby, more than you know

jenny,

i love you more than anything baby.

yours forever and always.

jenny,

i want you to know….

i love you more than anything baby.  you’re my everything and more and i want nothing more than to be with you beautiful.

i love you.

yours forever and always,

blake

im bawling my eyes out…again….

we got in another fight only this one is very very very serious and for once ive dont nothing at all wrong.

i was sitting on the futon doing hw and i got an email that tied my stomach in a knot and felt like it stabbed me in the heart…that was yesterday afternoon about 4.  i havent been the same since.

my heart is telling me to write it off as nothing because she would never hurt me and cuz she means soo much to me.  on the other hand, my mind is telling me to get the fuck out while i can and still have something left.

they always say love is tough but god damnit is this hard.  either way im gonna get hit by a train…

i forget but ill always have reservations and trust issues

i leave and ill never be the same and capable of loving like this

it fucking sucks and i just wish there was an answer.  im pretty logically minded and im getting no where so for the first time in my 20 years i called my mom for advice.  she couldnt talk but is going to call me back and i cant wait to hear what she has to say.

i never ever ever thought something like this could happen between us…where fuck did i go wrong?  what did i do to deserve this?  i wake up and go about my day loving my girlfriend every step of the way, no its so violently thrashed and thrown about.  I feel as if i was unbuckled in a car and got hit by an a train…i feel like a ragdoll that has no sense of what to do and cant do anything.

im a prisoner of my love for her right now.

In bed alone

Here I lay all alone in my tinie weenie little bed that is made for one and one only. Despite that I want one thing…jenny curled up right here with me, then I could sleep. I love you baby!

Little Moments - Brad Paisley

Well I’ll never forget the first time that I heard
That pretty mouth say that dirty word
And I can’t even remember now what she backed my truck into
But she covered her mouth and her face got red
And she just looked so darn cute
That I couldn’t even act like I was mad
Yeah I live for little moments like that

Well that’s just like last year on my birthday
She lost all track of time and burnt the cake
And every smoke detector in the house was goin’ off
And she was just about to cry until I took her in my arms
And I tried not to let her see me laugh
Yeah I live for little moments like that

I know she’s not perfect but she tries so hard for me
And I thank god that she isn’t ‘cause how boring would that be
It’s the little imperfections it’s the sudden change in plans
When she misreads the directions and we’re lost but holdin’ hands
Yeah I live for little moments like that

When she’s layin’ on my shoulder on the sofa in the dark
And about the time she falls asleep so does my right arm
And I want so bad to move it ‘cause it’s tinglin’ and it’s numb
But she looks so much like an angel that I don’t wanna wake her up
Yeah I live for little moments
When she steals my heart again and doesn’t even know it
Yeah I live for little moments like that

glenning. to glenn.

glenning: to get so wildly intoxicated you first disappear in the bathroom for 30 minutes then disappear from the party for 3 hours only to reappear in the front yard declaring you laid down in the woods in the back yard, a.k.a. pass out in the woods.

to glen: to partake in the act of glenning.

in a sentence:

guys i have one goal for tonight, no it has nothing to do with girls, i want to go GLENNING!

happy

its amazing

when the world is right and everything is going your way you dont have too much to say.

i am content right now…my amazing girlfriend is with me and we are better than ever, school is good…daddy is on the mend, life is great.

it helps so much to know she understands how much she means to me….to know that she wants forever as badly as i do….i love you baby